Curve balls

So ya never know when one will come at ya. They take yoy by suprise, they take you off center. Just when you think you know what is going on, or a plan is moving along flawlessly, one comes in at a staggering speed. Sometimes they even pop ya one right in the head, and knock ya down.

That's what happened to me last week. I had a series of speaches all set with what I thought was a perfect partner. Well suddenly my contact at the organization, resigns and the programs are off. We had done publicity, newspaper articles were written, registrations taken. Suddenly they are off. The remaining staf cannot support the work in her absence. Man was I dumbstruck!!

That does not happen often to me. I work through it in my mind, first denial, oh it will work out. Someone will be willng to work the details....nope, not how it ended, they are cancelled, registration monies refunded, me disappointed. I stewed in my frustration for a day or two, not being willing to let it go. This cannot be happening!!

So here I sit a few days later, able to move on, able to divert the energy to a new project and accept that everything works out for a reason. The reason has not revealed itself to me yet, thought I know if I keep my eyes and heart open it will. So I move forward knowing something will bring me the fun and joy I want.

I will rest knowing God has a lan, and it is up to me to accept that the univese is unflding as it should!!

Rest

Knowing when to rest is a skill I now know I the value of. For so many years I ran myself into the ground before I would rest. Actually it was more like collapse. What I now know is that I am so much more affective day to day as I give myself the gift of rest and rejuvenation.

These days the rest time is healing time. When I think of what it takes for the body to heal, I am reminded that rest is a huge part of the healing process, physically. It makes sense that rest would be required for emotional and spiritual healing too. Rest is also part of a good training regime for athletes. As you work to strengthen muscles the rest time is actually the building time for muscles. It is the rest that allows the muscles to heal and build, become stronger.

I like these thoughts as I think of my heart healing. It helps me to know that I am becoming stronger and that the pain will become less and less. Each time I take a rest from the work of healing, I feel good knowing it is all part of the process. It feels good to rest. I know that God does his work in those times too. He is gently healing me in each nap and each day dream. It feels good!

What holds you back from getting the rest you need?

Perfection

"My imperfections and failures are as much a blessing from God as my successes and my talents, and I lay them both at His
feet."

Mahatma Gandhi

Love this quote. For me, it is about facing all of who I am and loving it all. It is being able to look at myself honestly, it required if I am to expect that I will continue to grow. Spiritually, emotionally, intellectually, physically.

Success and failure live in the same place. It is being able to see the whole picture, just not the good, just not the bad. How can we possibly think that we are just good? How could we think we are just bad. We are whole living, growing, evolving creatures that face trials and tribulations each day. We are all doing the best we can.

As I end a marriage and begin a new life, I am forced to face my part of things. Where have I failed, where could have I done better, been more patient? I know that if I am to grow from this I must be willing to face it all, and accept that tomorrow I will strive to do better with the knowledge of my part.

So how can an honest view of yourself help you move forward?